Currently Listening Rent (2005 Movie Soundtrack) La Vie Boheme see related

This Is It

After this, I'm done.

I got a message from Pomo today.

I didnt read it.

It could have been mean. It could have been nice. I dont care. (Hell, it probably said "We're not going to Rocky on the 15th, and we're totally clueless that you're brokenhearted and feel no one gives a shit about you and just fakes it when youre around.") I dont want anything to do with anything going on over there. Not to be mean. I'm saving myself, and probably a few others. I'm sick of not existing. At least without them, I can feel like I'm worth something, because I dont expect anything. Well, I mean, I expect things, but I dont get my hopes dashed.

"The Willing Well II: From Fear Through The Eyes Of Madness"

What is this that I feel and what is this that I fear?
In these arms that whored out amongst the worms
That mate in these fields, oh
From pressure to pain I wish to stay awake
In the measure I test with your love for me
So shout against these walls
With hope that one will break free
So hear me...

What is this that you keep selling me, boy?
I'm not gonna hold your hand here when you walk
You'll burn in hell while they're digging you out
You'll burn in hell while they're digging you out
I'm not gonna hold your hand here when you walk
You'll burn in hell while they're digging you out
You'll burn in hell while they're digging you out

So picture this face and burn it to flake
To shelter it at home at the fireplace
And all but memory will fade
With the flick of the flame
So I have a secret that no one should know
That I shouldn't tell
But of all the... but of all the worlds
This one won't feel...
This one just won't leave me well

What is this shit you keep selling me, boy?
I'm not gonna hold your hand here when you walk
You'll burn in hell while they're digging you out
You'll burn in hell while they're digging you out
I'm not gonna hold your hand here when you walk
You'll burn in hell while they're digging you out
You'll burn in hell

In the press of your back
Do you feel the shore swell?
Oh boy, I'm eating my way back home
[x2]

As father told son in the make of his final escape
Should all good boys die with God at their side,
At the grace of His gates?
No, the Robot holds none with the mind
And a heart to comply
Then I will disguise and grieve of those dead
When I'm given the time

Run, little rabbit...
Go hide in the blades of that grass...
Run, rabbit, run

Should capture be our earnest fault?
Breathe up through lust and I'll find your cure
In there I'll kill, kill
In there I'll kill, kill, kill

With your last breath of air
As the Earth comes trembling down
Would you give her this last night
And give up your life

With your last breath of air
As the Earth comes trembling down
Would you give her this last night
The love of your life

No one runs faster than you can
No one runs faster than you
No one runs faster than you eat
(To the end with you... to the end with you)
[x5]

I'm Moving Out

Im making a new xanga. This is why.

I'm going to post something ive been hiding. then im moving out to complete the change.

I'm getting rid of every trace of tinley i have. i totally quit. and keeping some of it intact will only make things harder. so ifigure if i just forget about everybody there, it will be easier. except for one person, mostly because....well, lets not get into all that. but yeah. i never had a best friend. i jus believed i did for some stupid reason. this whole time i was under the impression that i meant something. i was wrong. and tom..well he's just dumb when i need him the most. okay. bye. ^_^

Currently Listening Drunk Enough to Dance By Bowling for Soup Belgium (Acoustic) see related

This Is Fun

Currently Listening The Second Stage Turbine Blade By Coheed & Cambria Time Consumer see related

So Picture This Face

After the awesomeness of yesterday, I think I'll be playing Coheed and Cambria all day long. Pretty much because something will make me.

It's insane how your view on people can change in the course of a few hours. And I'm not even talking about yesterday. I'm talking about like...three days ago with a series of e-mails. But yesterday played a big part, too.

It's also insane how your view on people can stay the same, much to your relief.

I wish I could be, like, really poetic and awesome. I try sometimes. Heh. I think about posting some of my writing somewhere sometimes, but a lot of the time my stuff is outdated. I go through "writing periods", wherre I'll write a lot for like, a week, then I'll go like, another two weeks without writing shit. Kind of lame. But the outdated thing is a problem mainly because people who dont know whats going on in my life for real will be like "omgomgomgomg ru okay omgomg". Uhhh yeah.

But Friday was awesomely awesome, and so was yesterday. I'm going to go see my first midnight show of Rocky Horror on the 15th.

Red Line is fun.

I hope this is just a feeling, but I think Daniel and I are going to be having a few arguments in the time to come, mainly because of something that makes me completely uncomfortable and...yeah. I just don't like it. I feel bad because I know it means a lot to him, but I don't want to end up doing anything stupid, which I'm sure will happen eventually.

I just crushed my foot between the desk and the chair. >_<

Currently Listening Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume One: From Fear Through The Eyes of Madness By Coheed & Cambria The Willing Well II: From Fear Through The Eyes Of Madness see related

17 Years Ago, ON This Day...

I started wreaking havoc.

Happy birthday to me. ^_^

Tinley tomorrow. wo0tie wo0t!